De-mystifying the Inner Voice
January 26, 2022
Recently I was doing a Soulbased coaching session with someone who realised he had to de-mystify his inner voice and de-demonise his ego. Beautiful words, which I believe is a sound advice for all of us!
The past couple of years that is exactly what I have been doing. I've started a journey which has been slowly unfolding. I really had no idea where I was going. I just wanted to explore what worked for me. I realised that my mind had gotten me into places which worked for me at the time, but which didn’t nourish me anymore. I felt very low on energy most of the time, my life force felt really weak. So it was time to explore different ventures, away from my beaten path. I started listening to my inner voice, which at first was unsure, but I consciously gave it lots of space. Things I wanted to explore I just explored. And I gave myself permission to start something and stop it again if I didn’t enjoy it or if it didn’t feel right. I didn’t engage in mental games where I would tell myself, that I would be a failure if I would stop something that I had started and in which I invested a lot of time and money. None of that.
For me the key in this exploration was that I put my mind at ease by creating some very clear ‘rules’. I was allowed to explore and I was allowed to say no. Initially I added a time cap to this experiment of 2 years. At the end of these 2 years I started experiencing restlessness and some anxiety. It took me a while to realise that the cause of this unrest was that the 2 years were up and my mind wanted to get back to normal and get back in charge. As the exploring was going so well, and was leading me into new ventures which were promising and enjoyable, I decided to let go of my time cap and decided to fully embrace this way of living, learning and working. This is how I want to continue to lead my life.
I cannot properly explain, without sounding like an enlightened lunatic, how much I enjoy my life right now and how strong my life force feels. I am not saying that I am enlightened, far from that, but I do feel a great sense of happiness.
I moved out of the city, to a small town , where I have lots of space and nature around me, while still being close to the important people in my life.
I feel I am really exploring life. I stepped on the path of self development, explored psychedelics (which I am eternal grateful for) and I am investing quite some time and money in education for myself, I take time to enjoy life with my friends, I take time for solitude. I still doubt, don't get me wrong, but that's part of the process, part of the journey. And it still scary a lot of the times, but I just dance with whatever comes.
My range of activities is wide, yet they interrelate in some way. They nourish me and I get to inspire other people to explore what is outside their comfort zone. To get to know themselves.
I work with people to help them find their Inner Compass and understand their life's journey (based on the hero's journey).
I coach people with the Soulbased method, where I create a safe space and guide people into their own inner landscape, where they get in touch with their inner knowing.
I run Microdosing programs aimed at increasing self awareness through a regular microdose of psychedelics. For which we are starting a new program mid February, so if you are curious, let me know. It’s a lovely stepping stone to get to know yourself better.
I am in the process of setting up a living community for the not too far future, so I can work and live with dear friends around me.
Most of these projects I run together with others, which make them even more fulfilling.
For those of you who speak Dutch, I would like to share this beautiful poem by Sascha Bol, which captures my process so beautifully.
Ik dans op de onderstroom
ik laat me zakken tot ik op de bodem
gewoon alles laat bestaan
en wat er dan naar boven komt
verandert in bewegen
ik kan er niet tegen in de stroming
zet een ritme in van op en neer
en heen en weer
het begin is ver te zoeken
en het eind is nooit in zicht
naar een onbekende richting
ga ik toe vanuit het voelen
heel mijn wezen danst van binnen
als ik leef in overgave
zonder reden te verzinnen
zonder steeds te moeten slagen
dansend raak ik dan de kern
in niet bereiken maar verrijken
van het streven naar beleven
hier een stap en daar een sprong
waar ik uitkom draai ik om
kijk ik terug en slaak een zucht
want in het tikken van de tijd
klinkt altijd muziek
ik ben zo vrij als ik dat zie
dat dansen in de stroming
op het ritme van het leven
gewoon bewegen